He loves us

Last week was a hard week. I struggled physically, mentally, and emotionally. Through it all, I had a deep knowing that it was spiritual. Yesterday as I sat and listened as the worship team prayed before service, I felt the Lord wooing me. Asking me to lay down my frustration, my hurts, my fears and to meet with Him in a place of surrender. He wanted my focus. Intimacy is very difficult when we are distracted, and my God wanted intimacy - His spirit and mine, His heart and mine. I knew that there was nothing that I needed more.

As we entered into praise and worship, I sensed Him immediately. Anytime I would close my eyes, I would feel like someone was coming up to my left side. I was sitting alone so I would open my eyes, but no one would be there. This happened several times until I finally decided that it must be the presence of the Lord. So the next time I felt it, I did as Eli told Samuel and I waited for the Lord to speak. I stood in absolute stillness and quiet and I began to know in my spirit His words and His thoughts for me. I kept having to open my eyes and distract myself from Him for a bit because I felt sure that I would fall over if I didn't, but each time I closed my eyes I would feel His presence again and always strongly at my left side. He spoke to me of His love for me. He whispered that if I knew how much He loved me, I would have no desires unmet, no needs that left me feeling weak and vulnerable.

This morning I was remembering yesterday morning. Reveling again in the experience and contemplating the wonder and beauty of meeting with the God of Creation. I began to question if there was something He was trying to express to me by being so strongly felt on my left side. I got on the internet and began to research. What I found is something I already knew, I just didn't put it together. The left side is the side of our heart. In artistry and mythology when something is held in the left hand or close to the left side it often directly or indirectly involves that person's heart. It gave me that dizzy beautiful feeling of being in love. My Savior came to my left side, the side of my heart, to talk to me of His love for me. He had enough intense love for me that He was that detailed in His expression. I am undone. He IS love.