Book Review

I just finished an updated edited version of the book In His Steps written by Charles Sheldon in 1896. It was about a group of Christians that took a vow that for a year they would ask themselves, "What would Jesus do?" before every decision. After arriving at what they believed Jesus would do in each situation they would respond in that exact way no matter what that would mean to their comfort, reputation, or future success. It was a very thought provoking book to read. I am going to try to give a more in-depth review at a later time mostly for my own benefit. I don't want to forget the questions this book has stirred in my heart. I want to be a seeker this year. I am convinced that God wants to reveal more of himself to me, but He is not going to make it easy for me. And I'm glad. And I hope that I am ready because I am going to start searching for Him and stop living off of my past encounters with Him. The quote from C S Lewis also comes to mind, "God is not safe but He is good." I feel that this part of himself that He wants to show me is not the "Jesus is my best friend" part of Him. It is the part of Him that make us willingly plead with Him like Isaiah, "Take a coal and cleanse my lips." The Holy God that we don't slap on the back but instead fall flat on the floor in something close to terror. I'm not exactly sure how to search, but I know I need to filter some things out of my life and make my mind and heart a better "home" for the Holy Spirit. I need to give Him more time to reveal Himself. I need to check my heart regularly and make sure the Lord continues to see in me a hunger for Him and not fullness from everything else I have filled myself with. My worry is that I won't succeed. I'll find myself next year still in this same place wondering what would happen if I start really searching for more of God. "God, don't let me give up".....dare I pray that?